This city will never see the birth of a forest.
I am sitting baffled keeping the picture in front
that you painted on a ruled sheet of paper
with your first blood chants.
How should I stay like grass without being a lover?
How would I press a soft pillow? How would I
drill in wild rock notes into my brain and ears?
Cigarettes would burn out with dreams, existence and solitude,
At one go all will die and sleep down in my guts
without protest.
This is the only bit of memory and rest of the fragments
the loves between the arteries and veins
the glory of the foliage have disappeared,
or everything fell off, rotten and putrid
those sunny days those softness of the little warmth.
I hid the water and those few days which I found by chance.
I have nailed those on my breast in fear of losing them,
And this city, the city’s wrong doing and
rehearsals of life and all those shades and shadows,
our pretension to live.
This city will never see the birth of a forest.
Probably it was born like a day stuck
to a finger like the fragments of a dream
the inevitability of a long sleep
which had no beginning and end.
Life surely will hunt you down one day.
Subhankar Das